Revamped Soul

Addicted to Gossip Girl

2008-11-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

i really love this show. it is like soo awesome!haha!i am now watching episode 3 of season 2.i ♥ blake lively!! my fave character is Blair Wardolf!there's not much to say now.. but please watch the show. it is pure genius! bloody brilliant! lolzxoxoR

bored at woodlands

2008-11-09T11:43:00.000+08:00

was at woodlands cause my mum brought me there..its was my gran's birthday// she's like 50! anyway.. its not the same gran as the one in the hospital like a month ago or something.. hope that one feels better though..anyhoo, i was bored STIFF!! at the home.. we arrived at about 3.it was only until 6 40 that tahmid called to meet me, HE's MY SAVIOR! even if it was only for a while cause ishmam wanted to buy some balloons.. tahmid showed me his clown's nose.. he has really gotten lamer and lamer/.. god!so after that, he and ishmam took the train home.. and i was left at causeway point all alone.. i decided to stroll throughout the mall, cause i'd rather do that than go back home. its just too boring there! i walked aimlessly for an hour or so. i went into the cd-rama place thingy at popular and took a look at the new arrivals and top sellers in the regional pop section.. needed to see what was good, i saw jj lin, rainie and ayumi! i already ahve jj's and rainie's i haven't gotten ayumi's all singles album thingy.. its 30 buck!! WHAT A BARGAIN!! wonder if i can find that in shanghai when i go there.. how much cheaper would it be?? i don't know. 3 more weeks to the trip! i am sooo excited!!!i am in a sudden craze over asian pop music!! i dont know why!!! i wonder if it is just a phase??i am listening to kpop, jpop, and mandopop!!! woah!! along with english pop and alt rock/post-hardcore music.. how do i keep myself updated.. that's the miracle!!! lol.. i just always seem to stay updated when it comes to music!!and while i am typing this post i have not looked at the keyboard!! that's amazing.. i am actually good at typing now!! apparently i feel like i have always known where the keys are without looking.. bur i just never had the courage to try to type without looking.. and it feels GREAT!!!!i feel soo professional.. LOLL!!!i am watching dramas as well..here are the details of what i am into right nowmusic..jpop: just listening to old music of animes i used to watchkpop: right now i am sooo into the WONDER GIRLS!!!!!cpop: rainie's new album!! jolin and jj's TOO!!drama:jdrama: its an old drama called himitsu no hanazono, it has the theme song "baby don't cry" if that rinfs a bell... almost 2 years since it aired.. lol.. im lagging..taiwain drama.. i am watching miss no good!! I LOVE IT!!! starring rainie yang!!!~plays XiaoHua~! and wilber pan!~plays TangMen~! i really wish i could look like dean fujioka~!! he plays Si Le!okok.. i dont wanna over update.. lolzz.. ok.. ttyl..ttfn..xoxorooke

Bryan Kang's House

2008-11-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

Me and gen went to bryan kang's house..we wanted to watch silence of the lamb... it got so boring so we suggested playing with his Wii instead.. hehe!!we didn't know how to play that well, so we were having fun, playing different games!! he lives all the way in the east along east coast road. the bus ride wasn't as long as i expected though.. 10 minutes faster. and it's a direct bus from home at bukit merah!! yaymee!!we left at about 7?? im not sure.. can't remember..!!! lol..well.. i can't remember much.. cause i didn't post straight away.. its sunday today.. it was 2 days ago.. i think..

not everyone sulks at their parent's obliviousness

2008-11-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

this is my reply to gen's latest post;you know the saying that i always live by"when life gives you lemons, make lemonade"i constantly tell you about that quote.its not about complain why your life is like that, its about what you do with it, and how you deal with it. when my mother does those things in your scenario. i tell myself that she is proud of me, but she just wants to keep my mind focused on education. she is after all my mother. even if she doesn't think those thoughts complaining won't do a thing.you pick yourselves up and do the right thing. improve yourselves, not for your parents' eyes because it does nothing to help their lives, but do it for yourselves, it does a lot to improve your lives.we live in the 20th century, things change you can't be so sentimental and expect love to be shown in that way. love is displayed in a different tone here at this age. it is displayed in the way that they push you into a better life. in the future, you will thank them when you live a great life, for if they were the type of parents you would want them to be, you would not be in the life you will grow into. you would be moving a step backwards and living with a mediocre payslip.

Play Hotel626

2008-11-06T13:28:00.000+08:00

YongXun told me of this game called Hotel626.com i think you should check it out. its really creepy..

This is my new blog url

2008-11-06T11:49:00.000+08:00

hey, i will start using live journal cause i think that it has a great community of bloggers.

don't forget to visit my site http://x-rooke.and-hearts.net

ciao!

Welcome to LiveJournal

2008-11-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

Funfair at St Teresa's Church

2008-09-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

wow! what a day!!!
the first thing we, Gen, Jean and I, did was go to the haunted house.. oh my! its was scary!! haha.. we screamed a lot. Gen was annoyingly pulling my shirt. and the collar was sooo stretched!! what a beyotch!! haha,. then they went for mass, i tagged along, awkward but i followed gen for mass last year too anyway. its was awkward when they did the kneeling etc.. when i didn't i felt so EXTRA! haha..!! and they didn't give peace to me!! haha.. never hug me!! lolzz.

we then continued in the fair.. nothing else as exciting,.. then we went on to "study" at Mc's at queensway s.c.. then we had to go home. i went to woodlands cause my mum wanted to have dinner there.. and i just came back at about a quarter past 11.. haiz.. sooo tired..

songs irecently downloaded:

Mind in the Gutter by Chris Crocker
Afraid by Nelly Furtado
Say It Right by Nelly Furtado
Monsoon by Tokio Hotel
Shadow by Ashlee Simpson
Whole Again by Atomic Kittens
Lonely by Britney Spears
Speed of Sound by Coldplay
If you're not the One by Daniel Bedingfield
Suddenly I See by KT Tunstall
The Bitter End by Placebo

Me Not Meant for Great Friends

2008-09-25T12:50:00.000+08:00

I have come to a realization that I am not meant for anything more than close friends.

Gen is my closest of closest friends. I do not regret that. In fact, I really appreciate that.
but sometimes, i want more, a best guy friend.

someone i can shop with,
someone i can eat with,
someone i can watch movies with,
someone i can talk about random things with, ie hair styles, piercings.. i dunno.. any random stuff.
someone i can do nothing with, you know what i mean.
just the company of friends keep u in peace.

but i guess i wasnt meant for more.

i have made some potentially close friends. but they fade away in time.
i had to migrate or they had to migrate.. all these changes, i grew to handle them.
because i never had to face them ever again, they'd be in some other country.

it's harder when they are still in the same school, and awkwards sitches..(situations fyi)

i have given up trying to get a best guy friend.. its useless.. i wasnt meant for more.

tahmid's nice really nice, but i don't see us being more than good friends from school.

i used to go to movies almost every week, go to lunch after school, be invited to LAN.. nowadays i don't get invited to any of those anymore so often..

its sad, how much my lifestyle has changed since last year.

much less action in such a short period is hard to adjust to.

anyway, it it was not meant to be it was not meant to be..

okkayy.. i just briefly photoshoped this pic.. like.. to emphasis on ME!! haha.. it is MY blog.

Studying

2008-09-20T06:52:00.000+08:00

Me gen and siti are going out studying at the national library. We are still there as of right now. In the middle of studying. I decide to blog from my phone.

To or not to be Scene.

2008-09-19T10:14:00.000+08:00

This is what i found for the definition of scene kid.

Scene has been called the "preppy emo". (preppy?? riight.. lolxzz)
They tend to be loud and generally have a good time. (yup! sounds just like me!)
They have a lot of confidence, which makes some of them stuck up. (Guilty as charged)
They take a lot of pictures (to post on their Myspaces!). (haha, i have hundreds of pics after only a month after I got my new Cybershot phone I took over 500 pictures!, 'cept i post it on facebook and sometimes friendster.)
They like little kid things like dinos, hairbows, coloring books, and playing in playgrounds. (I love stuffed animals! and cute little stuff! no idea why.. I just love to do kiddie stuff!)
They like to go to concerts, but refer to them as "shows". (I love going to showss. but I just go to school shows because no one wants to follow me to the other showss i.e. The Best Damn Tour!)
They wear skinny jeans, tight shirts, and eyeliner. (okay, i don't wear those, I am not skinnyy, duhh! I do wear slim cut jeans though)
The girls usually have a choppy hair cut, and they tease their hair a lot.
The guys usually have long bangs which must be tossed out of their face. (My hairs long, but I wish it were longer)
The girls usually have bright make-up. They love EVERYTHING in day-glo colors. (I love colors, but I don't wear make-up)
They like to add extra letters to words, like kid is kidd, rawr is rawwr, et cetera. (hahass, caught in the act! Wells, I just like to use the letter 'z' more often than s or I just add a 'z' or an 's' after a word for funn!)
They use old slang like stellar and rad. (I have suddenly been starting to use Uber! lols. xD. and 'so totally')

I am not admitting I am scene, I am just saying that its cool that Ican fit the descriptionn..

Tribute to SJI

2008-09-12T08:14:00.000+08:00

this ad shows old boys from sji telling there careers..

and the theme for the ad is never to underestimate an all round education..

tot it was cool..

so.. here it is.. im sure you have all seen it anyway..

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dtaXgXkF6o&hl=en&fs=1]

My Household (Uber Personal, Sad)

2008-09-10T12:08:00.000+08:00

Since everyone seems to be blogging about their family, so will I.

Well, my parents are separated, they have been since October 2002 in Australia. This is the reason why we never moved to Perth where we were to live as permanent residents. I stayed with my dad until November 2003, in South Korea. I took a plane back to Singapore as an Unaccompanied Minor, or UM as they called it.

My parents never filed for divorced. So technically they are still married. But I am so past the stage where I am still in denial and dream of them being together again. I am now at the final stage of grief. Reorganization.

Stages of Grief.

Denial
Volatile Reactions
Despair
Reorganization

When I first came to Singapore, I was SOOO despressed and SOOO in denial. imagine it yourself, put yourself in my shoes, your dad sends you on a plane alone to another country you are not so familiar with. No more friends and family(to an extend).

I never actually had volatile reactions. This is because I have always managed to control my anger and frustration. I was so in despair when I first stepped into Public School. I was enrolled in Gan Eng Seng Primary School. I was 2 years older than my peers, they all seem to be leading a happy life. Having whole families. I was filled with so much despair and jealousy.

Then, slowly i began to accept that nothing can change. I can only wish my parents were together again, and that is it, but what's the use? I might as well move on with life and focus on my own future, not my past.

Moving on to Saint Joseph's Institution really help me out as well. They had this programmed called Rainbows. It was for the students whose parents are Divorced, Separated or Deceased. And we all got together in different groups every week to discuss our feelings.

Lately, I have been seeing my dad and have been in contact more frequently, but that is only because he is in the region.

I still so dream of a happy family, but I am realistic. Sometimes a dream is meant to stay that way. Even if a dream IS a WISH your heart makes. No matter how strong that WISH is..

I have been living with this burdern for 5 years. So if you are worried over your parents quarreling over petty issues, I would be envious of you. I'd rather a family like that than my actual BROKEN one.

Hats off.
Rooke

Hair Care Advice

2008-09-07T10:39:00.000+08:00

I have read a lot on how to maintain good hair. Though i can't really recall everything. This is what I remember.

It is okay to wash your hair as many times as you want in a day. Not necessarily Shampoo. Just wash.
Do not blow dry your hair as often as everyday.
*above* Same goes for straightening with a flat iron rod.
Do NOT comb your hair whilst it is wet.
If you MUST use a huge comb with those Gi-normous teeth.
Your hair is more elastic when it is wet.
BUT it is also MOST vulnerable when wet.
Do NOT dry your hair with your towel so vigorously.
Do not touch your hair with your bare hands. This causes your hair to collect oil.
Hair touching your forehead does the same *above*.

Just some Basic hair care advice..

Homemade Wax.. lol...

2008-09-07T09:00:00.000+08:00

Homemade Wax! - Click here for another funny movie.

Sad Year.

2008-09-07T06:01:00.000+08:00

This year has been a sad year for me. So much drama. Everything just seemed to fall apart. Right from the beginning of the year. Lost friendships. Bad luck. Teacher troubles. etc... It is only now that I have decided to pick myself up again! I can't wait for my lady in a shiny gown to save me. hehe:P..

Its my new motto now.

""When life gives me lemons, I make Lemon Martini""

All the things that has happened throughout the year really has affected me. You can tell by the way I act. I've become a blur king. I just can't seem to think straight anymore. I don't want it to affect my education, so I have decided to stand on my own two feet. I will look on the bright side. I will tell myself the grass is the greenest it can be on my side. There is no other side with greener grass.

Today I went to a funeral. after the whole thing, I still don't know who died. Seriously! Am I really that spaced out?

Last Thursday's Bowling night was fun! I didn't get to take much pictures, but this is all I got.

weird pictures.. i know.. usually im good at taking pictures of us. but i was too tired that night. couldn't get a good shot.

My Friends Montage

2008-09-06T03:37:00.000+08:00

Please comment! and rate!

Here's the permenant link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SrUOW75XMrI

here's the video..

I have not been myself lately. It is because a lot has been running through my mind. I don't feeling comfortable sharing it here. But you can take a pretty good guess if you know me, its about friends. Well, of course i care for them. Friendship is really important to me. If i can't trust my friends, I don't know why I'd hanging with them. And many of you think I have trust issues. And yes, I admit I may have trust issues. My parents are separated they have been for 6 years, so naturally, I have a "disability" to trust anyone so easily. A lot say, I am always so cheerful, charismatic. But the sad truth is, I am acting through my tears. I don't any friends that i can trust, except maybe my bestiiie in the who0Olle Wiiidde Woo0Orlld!! Genevieve!!! And Leo seems to be a worthy friend, so far. I am not a shallow person. I really am deep.

And recently I have been trying to make friends. But I can't seem to do it right. So I tried making friends online. Not just randomly, friends of friends, so atleast i know they aren't some 30-year-old dude from North Canada, just sitting and waiting for Summer.

These are the people I have met so far.

Valentina
Hazel
Xue Ning
Katrina
Jordan Marie
Eng Khong

Keith

But I only got to talk with Valentina, very friendly.

Hazel talked to me once, but she was busy and she said save the intro for later.

I talked to Keith once too, found out he's from Hong Kong, cool!

But I guess we didn't really click enough to be friends, you can't win them all.

Anyhoo, so far, it really isn't bad meeting people online. you can be yourself. Nothing to hide, you start afresh. And you don't have to face them when worse comes to worse. Wonder if I'll ever get to meet up with any of them. I should hope so, the whole point was to make friends, what kind of friends don't meet up just to hang.

"I want friends to play a big role in my life, I don't to be tha old man who lives alone with 27 cats"

Screenshot Time

2008-09-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

Its been so long since we last had this segment!

Public Apology

2008-09-05T13:27:00.000+08:00

This post was inspired by a certain new friend. Who called me mean! Sorry, I hate it when first impressions go wrong. First impressions mean a lot to me. And yes, i know it was just a joke when she said "so mean ah"... haha.. But I took it seriously. :P

Ok ok.. this is coming sincerely from the ♥heart♥.

I know my posts have been bitchy a lot... i've heard comments.. hehe:p

some of you want me to continue cause it humors you.

some say its mean (there's that word again)..

well, i am here to apologise for any post that might have offended you in anyway.

I've come to a realization than since May I have changed completely to a different person. After a certain ... event.

I used to be that shy new kid. sitting alone at the back of the class.

Then, I became the one who wants to be with the in crowd, willing to try whatever they did (what games, music.. etc..) dota... hehe:P [Oh yeah, last Saturday I got my first "FIRST BLOOD"] {I now play cod4 the most though}

Then I lost touch and became the same old shy new kid.

Then I wanted to make a name for myself.

I became the kid who people want to talk to and what to hang out with (sorry if i sound too BHB, thickskinned i dont mean it that way)[AKA The B!itch]

Some say I became a monster. Blunt. Vain. Selfish. World revolved around me.

Some say I am very charismatic.

Well, I can't judge myself on the outside. But on the inside what I really feel is;

I miss my old friends!!! WAAAAAHH!!!**sobs* (but no use crying over spilt milk, I'll never get them back)
I wish things were back to the way they were
I have many regrets

So I really, sincerely apologize..

I don't want to be that B!tch around the block anymore!

So here's who I'd like to apologize to for being mean to;

Russell Liew
Hazlami Hamid
Daniel Lim
Terrence Tan
Calvin Gan
Genevieve Narciso
Olive Chew
Louiza Wong
Joie Lim
Yustynn Panicker
Grace Chew
Jazmon Tham
Jarron Tham
Bryan Ong
Joshua Dahlberg
Joshua's Brother Dahlberg
Tahmid Nasif
Naveen, Govan
Cornelius Tan
Jun Xian
Douglas
QiHong
Timothy Seet
Jean Kyaw
Jun Yuan

and many more.. (sadly the list doesn't stop there)

If you don't think i have offended you or didn't know I did. Well I did, and again.. sorry.. truce??

India.Arie - The Heart of the Matter

Daniel's stupidity

2008-09-03T08:51:00.000+08:00

Haha. He didn't noticed those stickers leo pasted on his back. I'm sending this from my phone because i'm in class. And the stickers are still on his back as i type! Haha

Fun time out!

2008-09-02T15:25:00.000+08:00

Was hanging with there 8 other people. So fun, we caught wall.e in the theatres.

First Photo Blog Post

2008-09-02T12:43:00.000+08:00

from now on.. i will also be posting pics from my mobile..

LAZY

2008-08-31T02:57:00.000+08:00

i really am sooo lazy to blog about what has happened in the past week..
i am not saying nothing happened, a lot did, in actual fact.
but i am lazy..
as viren says, "lazy to the max"

PICTURES

2008-08-22T10:51:00.000+08:00

New Nickname

2008-08-22T10:41:00.000+08:00

Now i have a new nickname to add to my lists of nicknames...

Santorini!!!

don't ask why... cause i ain't so sure either.. lolx.. it was kinda random..

John (instructor OBS) called me that.. for no apparent reason;;

EDIT: LOLSXZZ!!! Just found out Santorini is an island in Greece!!!

Outward Bound

2008-08-22T08:51:00.000+08:00

Outward Bound

I was put into my Watch which was called Sui Sen.
My Other Members are :

Tim (Timothy)
Suleiman (Dickson)
Teck Chiang
Brandon
Zhiyang
Yong Feng
Narendar
Govan (Naveen)
Saiful
Nando (Bernando)
Thanh ( I think that's how its spelt)
Ryan
Terrence

And my Instructor is called Chio Bu (Vanessa)

Day 1
We got into our Watches. We took the ferry from punggol jetty to Camp 1. We were told to write our names on tape and stick it on our shirts. a name we would want to be called for the next 5 days. not all of us put our real names. just nicknames or fake names.. lol.. i wrote my name as Rooke.

Our 1st Activity was the trust fall.
Chio Bu got out this mat and told us to stand on the sides., 6 on one side, 7 on the other. i was wondering why. there were 14 of us. i chose to stand out 1st.

it was only after she brought us to this platform that i realized what we were supposed to do. i was to fall on to the mat, you know.. trust exercises.. i was so freaked out. but i went on. i did it. so scary.

next we learnt how to belay... blah blah. boring.

we then did this picture puzzle called Zoom/Re zoom.
we were each given 2/3 parts of a story. we were to describe to each other our parts and try to fix it together in chronological order. we took a while but we got it the 1st try!! amazing.

then we learnt how to pitch the tents..

we set up our tents in the woods at camp 1.

Day 2.
Morning PT. Chio Bu wasn't feeling well. so John came in to replace her for the day. We were to climb the inverse tower. it was so high. i freaked! but i got my guts in place and climbed. i reached the top. wasn't so bad. until it was time to go down. every time i was being let down i freak. i dunno why, its just scary to be like sitting on my harness being let down supported by a rope. i climbed twice.

We then walked to Camp 2 to learn to Kayak. afterwards we pitched our tents then learnt to cook.

Day 3
We set off on our Sea Expedition or Sea Ex (lols.. S.Ex). we kayaked for 18 km.. wow.. tiring!! we finally reached this beach around 3 or 4,, or was it 5..?? we did the S. Ex with Dhanabalan, Eng Soon and Barker. 4 other groups met up with us there. they had their Land Ex. (L. Ex). Tahmid and Hasti was in that group.
Another Mass cooking.

Day 4
We had our L. Ex i preferred the S. Ex... we trekked around Ubin.. like as if we were lost!! and while we were carrying our stuff!!! oh emm Jee..!! it was Uber tiring.. we were the last group to reach Camp 1. Tahmid and Hasti set off for their S. Ex, i suppose.. wonder how their day was.

Day 5, Last Day!
We had morning PT. then we set some goals.. and threw stones to symbolise our hurdles from reaching our goals... we then got ready to leave.. really sad...

we wrote all our emails to Tim. we bought our souvenirs. i bought a shirt, a collar pin, a key chain and a notebook. it cost me 28 $$. we then left for Mainland!!!

it started to pour when we reached the jetty in Ponggol. so naturally the bus stop was full of students. everyone was borrowing my phone to call.. i dunno why they didn't bring their own phone!

while i was boarding the bus, Haz' Dad came up to me. He asked me whether Haz had reached yet.. well i wouldn't knoooooow.. we aren't friends anymore..

i can't believe he remembers me.. i mean its been sooo long.. oh well.. it is ME we are talking about!! lolx.. jkjk..

I went for lunch at KFC with Teck Chiang, Dion and Saiful.. then we took our respective paths home.. haiz.. I am going to have an OBS hangover tomorrow..

Getting Ready For Outward Bound (Singapore) 5-day Camp Trip

2008-08-16T06:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday after training, i went to meet up with Gen at NTU. I took a Taxi from my school, and i there was a jam along the highway. the fare including surcharges was 22.70$$... haiz.. we hung around the campus.. saw the library.. it was like night time.. so it was creepy going around... what an adventure we had!! he he:P.. I'll attach a couple of pictures..

This morning.. i just packed the stuff i already have for my obs trip.. later my mum will drive me to where ever to get whatever i am missing..

i really don't know how to react to this camping trip.. Excited?? Bummed?? I am really at a mix of feelings.. but then again.. i always am in a mix of feelings.. i usually don;t know how i feel.. that's why when you see me, i flow through emotions as quickly as an armadillo being chased by a madman.

Stanrly Gave Me This Name

2008-08-11T17:12:00.000+08:00

Rooke Evans bin Fumika Jying Jyong Pyon Pierre Fa Luo. Haha Don't Ask.

Other aliases i go by.

Farouq
Rooke
xXFuMiKaXx
xXJunKieXx
Charming Junkie Fumika
Fumika
Slut
Bitch
Ruth
Ruthy
Ruthee

I couldn't sleep, that;s why I am posting.. hehe :P

Me?? Like Haz?? EeeewwWW!

2008-08-11T16:28:00.000+08:00

I really can't stand when i hear people saying i like haz. its really ridiculous.. it really gets on my nerves. Its soo wrong. there are plenty i hate about him.

He's so insecure
He's a total DOTA FreaK!
He'a such vainpot
He's soo into the paranormal
He takes things too lightly
He's lazy
He's very impatient
He could lose 10 pounds... (hehe :P)
He ain't trendy enough
He thinks Spade is a good place to buy clothes
He -hearts- poser clothings
He can't even find a simple shop to buy those Mr Men shirts.

There are more a plenty where they came from...

and plus! He's a GuY!

Okay, i admit, i DID admire him at a point, BUT! it WAS just an admiration. Do NOT mix admiration with infatuation!

I just thought it would've been cool to be him instead of myself. I don't know what i think anymore.

Which reminds me, I am so not into Hilary Duff anymore, I do like her but not obsessively. I totally -heart- Taylor Swift now!

Anyhoo, my birthday is coming soon, the day after i come back from Outward Bound Singapore, from the 18th to the 22nd of August.

I will be 17! Oh Em Jee, I am so old.

Mummy Returns

2008-07-29T11:01:00.000+08:00

The third instalment of The Mummy airs in the theatres this Thursday. ooh! I am so excited. i have always loved to watch the mummy movies.. brandon fraser is awesome.. but i didnt see racheal weiz in the latest movie.. aww.. sad.. she's really good as well.. can't wait.. i wanted to watch it on its air date, but i proberbly can't. but i will try to catch it as soon as i can.. who shall i invite?? Tahmid?? nahh.. he's not much of a movie person.. ( well.. he watches movies.. but actually, he thinks like every movie sucks. everybody's a critic )..

there's nothing much to talk about.. so.. toodles..

Thinking About Being Skinny

2008-07-27T04:45:00.000+08:00

i know its kinda feminine to think about one's body.. but i have always wanted to be skinny...
many have said i have lost weight. and i feel a bit good on hearing all that.. but i just dont feel good about myself just yet.. i will go all out to skinny-fy myself. but i am only slim.. and slim is not enough.. i want to be thin.. not slim.. or even better.. i want to be skinny.. skinny is the new thin... i love how bones stick out skinny people.. okay.. that makes me seem loco in the head. in fact people have always wondered wht type of girls i would go for.. i usually look at the legs.. i look out for long skinny legs.. thats my first look.. haha.. i like skinny girls best.. i also want to be taller.. i try so hard to grow... even though between the people in my household, my mother and my siblings, i am the tallest, i am still short. i stand only 1.64m.. pathetic.. i have always wanted to be 1.73m minimum. so with my weight of about 62kgs.. i am slim.. with a bmi of 23.1 which to me is high.. i don't know, but how i am living, there is a unknown pressure to be thin.. you're thin you're in.. this is perfection.. skinny is more perfect.

well, if any of you have great ways of losing weight please share..
Don't come and say excercise, excercise.. i am not stupid.. i mean like extra stuff i can do.

Layout Change

2008-07-26T04:12:00.000+08:00

i have decided to use a template... keep my blog simple.. if or when i get a personal site of my own. i will display my own skins.. and i will make sure it is viewable in ie as well..

yesterday was an awesome day.

after the long school hours i had SJAB. and i barely did anything at all.. at 5 30pm we ended. and we got ready for the Kindred Spirit concert. i got free dinner because i was helping out with CARE.
Catholic AIDS Response Effort. i was to collect donations during the intermission and at the end. so anyway. my free dinner was some rice with fish... i gave it to XiangLi cause i wasn't in the mood of eating.. wasn't really that hungry anyway. even though i didnt even eat much the whole day. i practically skipped recess.. so the show was awesome..

first up was Christopher Gozali with his piano piece.. all i can say is.. WOW..! i have always envied pianists.. cause i have always wanted to be one.. oh.. dreams.. lol..
the CHIJ dancers were.. WOWOWOWOWEEEEE!!!
the whole show was AMAZING...'

by the time the show had ended, it was about half past 10.. i boarded the bus home [ all alone.. haiz.. ] at 10 50pm.. and i fell asleep! i woke up when the bus had LEFT the interchange.. thats right.. left.. so i fell asleep when the bus reached the interchange and then it left there. it wasn't on service for that trip.. so.. i went down to the bus driver and he opened the door for me right there at the traffic junction... and luckily for me.. it was much closer to home then the bus stop.. hehe:P

i reached home at 11 08pm... Arthur was at the living room.. alana was in my mum's room watching her anime (even though she had to wake up uber early the next day cause she has a school trip to Malacca) arthur was watching HOUSE.. i joined in.. i was SO hungry. i ate 3 pieces of original recipe Kentucky Fried Chicken that the ordered while i was out. i felt like a pig!!! i stayed awake to watch an episode of HOUSE.. then i went to bed at a quarter past 12mn..

i woke up today and watched a movie on my ipod.. and after the movie.. weirdly enough.. i felt like the kindred concert had just happened a minute ago.. haha.. its just sooo rememberable..

2008-07-24T11:22:00.000+08:00

Well, tomorrow is the Kindred Spirit Concert.
i have volunteered to do some stuff for a bit of CIP hours.. hehe :P
you will see me and 4 of my classmates selling some stuff during the intermission and at the end of the concert. it is for a good cause so please! buy them! it is for an AIDS organization..
show your support...

i never got the chance to do some shopping for this concert.. so i have to wear whatever i already have.. i'll try my best to look smart..

2008-07-21T09:47:00.000+08:00

Sorry i havent been updating for so long.. okay.. its been 6 days..
its weird, today at lunch i decided to have a proper meal..
and when i did, and walked across the canteen to the table at the other end. everyone was questioning me, like, are you really gonna eat that? or you eat? or can you finish that?
what do they think i don't eat or something?? just because i usually dont buy a meal during school hours?? and someone even said i thought you were anoretic!.. ooO..

not that i mind or anything... but i just thought i should say it.... cause it is a weird thing to have happen..

Song
Walking On Air by Kerli
this song has been in my head for weeks!
its really good!

2008-07-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

Last night we went to woodlands for dinner..
i swear, if my mum loves it there so much, she should've bought the house that was available there.. it would have been very convenient for me to get to school.. at block 345 @ woodlands..
but NO!! instead she buys the one ALL THE WAY AT THE WEST END OF SINGAPORE... Jurong West.. we haven't actually moved in yet.. we haven't even gotten the keys yet.. but its so far.. i mean, i am going to have to leave the house from there before i even get up if i were to stay in bukit merah view.. haiz.. we've been going to and fro from woodlands a lot lately.. i don't think things are going to change anytime sooner..

this morning.. i left for tampines to meet with hasti.. haha.. WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!!! Sheesh!
i don't know.. **expels big breath of air..** then i had to rush of to, guess where?, Woodlands! some 40 day death anniversary or something..

now back home.. *sians*.. tired, bored.. dunno lah.. sorry.. when i am not really in my all time good mood.. i turn to Singlish...

2008-07-12T05:37:00.000+08:00

I cancelled my meet wit hasti.. haiz.. just too lazy lah.. haha

ok.. i was looking up some nice wallpapers and i screenshot them...
from my fave mangas, tv shows, games etc..

Mangas

Fruits Basket

Tsubasa

Games

Warcraft

Tales of (Series)

Harvest Moon

TV Shows

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Heroes

Oh YEAH!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAHMID!!!

2008-07-12T03:12:00.000+08:00

Well. Now i am going to get ready to go Hasti's house for our math group project.
he stays all the way at Tampines argh!! its about a half-an-hour train ride from Tiong Bahru though.. half the time then if i took the bus, 65.. which takes over an hour!!

oh well.. i hope this time we will get work done.. we met twice before for our math project.. the 1st we were with russell, also in our group, and gen, lol.. invited her for fun! we didn't do anything.. but russell did some research.. and he must've misplaced it or given it to someone.. cause he doesn't have it anymore..
the 2nd time, me and Hasti met and instead we played LAN! ahahaha..
we have to get work done this time..

hehe.. he told me to leave at 11.. hehe.. yet here i am.. almost half an hour later.. not yet ready and not yet cleaned either.. hehe..

haha.. im too lazy..

forgive me!! HAHA

ps.. i have dubbed my laptop Yuzzy!! and my phone Amby!
haha.. dont ask..

2008-07-11T13:08:00.000+08:00

Ok.. Ok..
Some of you may know me of doing CRAZY things to make my life BUZZworthy.. hehe..
So, i am tired of doing stuff like that now..
i have retired! Now i am going back to my normAL SELF, well, not really.. i have now become more outgoing.. yay me! i am so happy for myself.. yes.. happy is in my emotions catalog..

Mr Sim told me that i have been reinstated to the Shanghai Trip!! yay me again!
its weird when you're with me and notice that i was like, China Shmina who needs to go there, when i didn't get the trip.. and now i am HYPER!! hehe..

Hypocrasy to me is a character of mine.. i would classify it as a character yes.. its not a bad thing its not a good thing.. i am a hypocrite.. and i am not proud of it, but i am not embarrassed of it either.. i won't go into details of all the things that i have been a hypocrite in.. but generally.. yes i am a hypocrite... do beware.. hehe

no songs or YADA today... sry.. hehe..

2008-07-08T09:42:00.000+08:00

lol.. screenshot time!!!

2008-07-08T08:12:00.000+08:00

Today, Mrs (Josephine)Lee told me that when she was talking to Ms (Josephine)Wee on Sunday, Ms Wee said thast i look different, that i have longer hair etc.. hehe.. then Mrs Lee also told me that she went to see my picture in the yearbook and said i was fat!(so blunt! hehe jkjk).. but then she also said now i looker thinner and more trendy.... haha.. one of the best compliment i've heard about me.. others include.. nice shaped eyebrows(i know.. weird right???) and small person(this i don't really like.. makes me feel petite...)..

Songs (and the lines of the song i can relate to.. or am thinking about)

Miley Cyrus - 7 things
Miley Cyrus - 7 Things

7 things i hate about you:
1st : You're vain
2nd : Your games
3rd : You're insecure
4th : You love me, you like her
5th : You make me laugh, You make me cry, I don't know which side to buy
6th : Your friends they're jerks, When you act like them, Just know it hurts, I wanna be with the one I know
7th : And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do, You make me love you

7 things i like about you:
1st : Your hair
2nd : Your eyes
3rd : Your old Levis
4th : When we kiss I'm hypnotized
5th : You make me laugh, you make me cry, But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
6th : Your hand in mine, When we're intertwined, Everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
7th : And the seventh thing I like the most that you do, You make me love you

YADA!!!

Woah!! have i gone hotter or what?? haha.. joking...!!

2008-07-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

Ｍｏｒｎｉｎｇ！
Ｉ　ａｍ　ｓｏ　ｂｏｒｅｄ．．　ｔｈｅｒｅ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｂｌｏｇ　ａｂｏｕｔ．．　ａｎｄ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　ｎｅｗ　ｏｎ　ｍｙ　ｄｅｓｋｔｏｐ　ｔｏ　ｓｃｒｅｅｎｓｈｏｏｔ．．．　ｉ　ｗｏｋｅ　ｕｐ　ａｂｏｕｔ　４５　ｍｉｎｕｔｅｓ　ａｇｏ．．　ｓｏ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　ｈａｐｐｅｎｅｄ　ａｔ　ａｌｌ．．

ｉ　ｍａｙ　ｂｌｏｇ　ｌａｔｅｒ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ａｆｔｅｒｎｏｏｎ　ｏｒ　ｅｖｅｎｉｎｇ　ｗｈａｔｅｖｅｒ　ｈａｐｐｅｎｓ　ｔｏｄａｙ．．．￥

ｔｈｅｒｅ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　ｉ　ｃａｎ　ｄｏ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｏｍｐｕｔｅｒ　ｅｉｔｈｅｒ．．．　ｅｖｅｎ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｉｎｔｅｒｎｅｔ．．．

ｗｅｌｌ．．　ｔｈａｔ’ｓ　ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｓａｙ　ｎｏｗ．．

Ｓｏｎｇ　ｓｔｕｃｋ　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｈｅａｄ：　Ｍｙ　Ｉｍｍｏｒｔａｌ　ｂｙ　Ｅｖａｎｅｓｃｅｎｃｅ．．．　ｉ　ｐｌａｙ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｉＰｏｄ　ｏｎ　ｒｅｐｅａｔ．．　ａｎｄ　ｌｉｓｔｅｎ　ａｇａｉｎ　ａｎｄ　ａｇａｉｎ．．　ｗｈａｔ？？　ｉｔｓ　ａ　ｂｅａｕｔｉｆｕｌ　ｓｏｎｇ！！　

2008-07-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

ｗｅｌｌ，　ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｓ　ａｌｌ　ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｓａｙ！！！

image removed by request...

2008-07-06T12:23:00.000+08:00

ScreenShot time!!!

2008-07-06T11:40:00.000+08:00

Ｂａｃｋ　ｆｒｏｍ　ｔｈｅ　ＭＩＬＫ　ｒｕｎ．．．　
ｈａｉｚ．．．　ｓｏ　ｔｉｒｅｄ．．
Ｉ　ｗａｌｋｅｄ　ｌｉｋｅ　４．５　ｋｉｌｏｍｅｔｒｅｓ．．．
ｅｖｅｎ　ｉｆ　ｉｔ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｗａｌｋｉｎｇ．．　ｉｔ　ｉｓ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｔｉｒｉｎｇ．．

ｄｕｒｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｒｕｎ．．．　ｗｅ　ｋｅｐｔ　ｏｎ　ｂｕｍｐｉｎｇ　ｉｎｔｏ　ｔｈｅｓｅ　ｇｉｒｌｓ　ｆｒｏｍ　ＳＴＣ（ｓｔ．　ｔｈｅｒｅｓａ’ｓ　ｃｏｎｖｅｎｔ）　ｓｏ　ｗｅ　ｋｅｐｔ　ｏｎ　ｔａｌｋｉｎｇ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｔｈｅｍ．．　ｈｅｈｅ
ａｎｄ　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｒｕｎ．．　ｗｅ　ｓａｗ　ｔｈｅｍ　ａｇａｉｎ．．　ａｎｄ　ｗｅ　ｏｖｅｒｈｅａｒｄ　ｔｈｅｍ　ｓａｙｉｎｇ，　”ｗｅ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｏｎ　ｓｅｅｉｎｇ　ｔｈｏｓｅ　ｔｗｏ　ｂｏｙｓ　ｏｖｅｒ　ｔｈｅｒｅ．”．．　ｌｏｌ．．　ｉ　ｗｏｎｄｅｒ　ｉｆ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｗｅｒｅ　ｔａｌｋｉｎｇ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｍｅ　ａｎｄ　ｔａｈｍｉｄ　ａｓ　ｗｅｌｌ．．　ｔｈｅｒｅ’ｓ　ａ　ｃｈａｎｃｅ．．

ｔｈａｔ’ｓ　ａｌｌ　ｉ　ａｍ　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｓａｙ　ｆｏｒ　ｎｏｗ．．　ｉ　ａｍ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｔｉｒｅｄ．．　ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｈａｖｅｎ’ｔ　ｈａｄ　ａ　ｓｈｏｗｅｒ　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｒｕｎ．．　ｓｏ　ｉ　ａｍ　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｈａｖｅ　ａ　ｎｉｃｅ　ｃｏｌｄ　ｓｈｏｗｅｒ．．

ｈａｉｚ．．．．

ｑｕｏｔｅ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｙ．．
”Ｊｅ　ｎｅ　ｓａｉｓ　ｐａｓ　ｐｏｕｒｑｕｏｉ　ｊｅ　ｔ’ａｉｍｅ．”
”Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.”

2008-07-06T04:11:00.000+08:00

Hey readers!

Just finished getting ready to go to the MILK Run today..

I've neatened up.. hehe.. *grins.. Blowdryied my hair, and straightened it, God knows why.. and I hope my Mum would just STOP nagging about my hair!!! its only been ,ike what 3 months since i cut it?? anyhoo.. I am meeting Tahmid today for lunch.. He wanted to catch a movie, but not I, cause I just watched a movie yesterday.. Hancock, if you remember me mentioning in my previous post.

So I'll post a few pictures of me before

Oh No!!! I've become like Olive Chew!! I'm YADA-ing!! hehe..

....

I'll post about the milk run and what happened when I get back ok??

See ya!!

PS.. its along the singapore river.. cool.. just like last year.. ooh.. i'm reminiscing..

PPS...Wondering where I am?? hehe.. I am in my Sister's room.. She's sleeping just in front of me!!! haha.. So the backdrop is her wardrobe.. I left my laptop in her room last night, so I was too lazy to bring it back.. haha.. so i just blogged from where I was.. LAZY TO THE MAX!

PPPS.... OMG!! OMIGOD.. I think i gained weight!!! I was 64kilos(141lbs) the last time i checked.. but look at me now?? I'm so fat! OKay.. its okay.. my excess weight has GOT TO GO!!! and it will go! i'll be 54kilos(119lbs) before you know it.. By the way, I'm only 1.64metres(5' 5") in height.. lol.. yea i know.. SHORT!

2008-07-05T12:06:00.000+08:00

Today, we went to Causeway Point.
After a 20 minute drive from home, we arrived at CP at about 12.30pm..
We walked around the mall, etc... then we had lunch at Banquet, on the top floor outside the movie theatres. I ate at a stall called "BBQ Ayam", i ordered their "Golden Chicken" whatever that is.. should've just ordered the black pepper chicken.. haiz.. after the meal.. we stayed their like forever!! you see, we met up with our cousins and aunty and uncle.. so my mum was talking with my aunt and uncle.. while we,me, arthur and alana, chatted with my Cousin, Yaz...

After the long wait.. we decided to catch a movie.. we watched Hancock.. it was a good movie.. funny, unpredictable.. 5 stars hands down..

The adults didn't watch it with us.. so after the movie, it was 4 30 by now..., we walked around the mall again.. this time we went window shopping.. ok.. only i went window shopping.. arthur and yaz went to the time zone arcade.. alana went to have a seat on a bench nearby.. i can't really remember the name of the shop.. urm.. X-something.. cheap clothings.. i should go there more often to buy my clothes.. that reminds me, TOPMAN is on sale.. Tees are real cheap.. like 2 for 30 or 40 dollars!! amazing.. until the Great Singapore Sale ends though. which is about July 10?? dunno.. forgot..

After that, we met up with the adults and we separated.. met my mum between CP and the civic plaza.. at the pick up point thing.. and drove home..

haiz.. that's about it..

i reached home and watched Fruits Basket Episodes on YouTube..
now on episode 6.. from episode 3.. 3 episodes..

ok.. that's about it.. thanks..
Talk to ya laters!!

Screen Shot

2008-07-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

Was totally bored to death.. so i decided to post a screenshot.. lol..

Friday 4th July

2008-07-04T09:11:00.000+08:00

What happened today?

let me see..

Second period, Physical Education
the grounds were wet, so we went to the lecture theatre, as usual..
but this time, instead of watching a video on rugby.. we watched one of hockey..
a change.. but still boring.. sports are only fun when played.. not watched..
but for me.. i only like racket sports.. he he.. like.. tennis,,, badminton... ping pong.. etc..

Physics And Chemistry Weekly Topic Check Back-to-back..
We had a topical test for physics and chemistry today.. on the same day.. and just one after the other.. lol.. for the physics, i didn't study.. even though it was on lenses, it wasn't as easy as it sounds..
The chemistry test was harder! but i somehow managed to get luck on my side., and thought out the correct answers!!! he he.. lucky guesses??

Recess, snacks..
i just drank strawberry milk, as usual, and a pancake with red bean paste filling..
oh yeah.. and a green apple, also as usual..

Full Geography...
Haiz.. nothing much.. but the new teacher is so much better than the old one.. i don't fall asleep anymore.. he he.. more activity going on..

Free Period, Relaxing time..
i couldn't decide on whether to go to Friday prayer.. i am in the middle of being an atheist.. its confusing.. its hard to keep my decision with peer pressure surrounding me.. i want to be a free man.. lol.. but it wasn't bad being a Muslim either... i just lead a complicated life..

Personal Social Education, Extra Useless Lesson
Weird but during this lesson, which our homeroom teachers are suppose to conduct, Brother Jason took over.. he usually makes things fun.. but i am not into fun that much anymore.. dunno why.. it bores me..

After school..
Went to meet Hastiko! in the cafe at tanglin CC.. on the way i saw Haz.. He talked to me.. weird.. i thought he wouldn't want to talk to me after those stupid rumours.. oh well.. good to know he still thinks of me as at least an acquaintance...

OK.. that's about it.. nothing else..
bye..

I am confident!

2008-07-03T07:26:00.000+08:00

a lot of you may realize by now that i have changed into a more outgoing person, more daring... more lively.. i have made many more friends by now.. i am so proud of myself... i still wish things were back to the way they were before.. oh well.. what can i do about anything.. i must get over it and move on.. this sunday is the milk run that i volunteered for.. so did tahmid... its just a short run.. about 4 to 5 kilometers long.. along the singapore river... nothing new.. i have been walking there during the school holidays a lot..

my current weight: 64 kilos
my current height: 1.64m

Host change.. again.. hehe

2008-06-28T13:17:00.000+08:00

i can seem to make up my mind..
ill just stick to blogspot..for now..

i just got my new laptop today..
been fooling around with it..
you know, personalizing it with my touch

i am going to start designing my own blog skins again..
i am a little rusty with photoshop..
but ill get the hang of it back...
i used to be really good..
not professional.. hehe.. but really good..
good enough to make tens of layouts for different websites..
okok.. bragging time over..
there's nothing to brage about when you're rusty at the thing you're bragging about...

layout change for x'mas

2007-12-14T17:37:00.000+08:00

New Layout is here... for the X'mas season...

2007-12-05T14:47:00.000+08:00

Britney Spears Lyrics

love this song!!!

Piece Of Me Lyrics

I'm Miss American Dream since I was 17
Don't matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derri¨re in the magazine
You want a piece of me?
You want a piece of me...

I'm Miss bad media karma
Another day another drama
Guess I can't see no harm
In working and being a mama
And with a kid on my arm
I'm still an exception
And you want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)

I'm Mrs. 'You want a piece of me?'
Tryin' and pissin' me off
Well get in line with the paparazzi
Who's flippin' me off
Hopin' I'll resort to startin' havoc
And end up settlin' in court
Now are you sure you want a piece of me?
I'm Mrs. 'Most likely to get on TV for strippin' on the streets'
When getting the groceries, no, for real..
Are you kidding me?
Causing panic in the industry

I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Miss American Dream since I was 17
Don't matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derri¨re in the magazine
You want a piece of me?
You want a piece of me...
You want a piece of me?
I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
Oh yeah
You want a piece of me

2007-11-16T13:45:00.000+08:00

i got my class posting results today...
class 326...
thats the last class of my school...
atleast still express... ha ha...
still on the road to 'o' levels.. haha..
but i wonder if if i'll take my 'a' levels, or get a diploma at polytechnic
what to write about now ar??? i also dunno...

2007-11-09T13:16:00.001+08:00

i have no idea what to write about... any ideas???

add me in friendster / facebook/ msn

-> farouq4hilary2323@hotmail.com

2007-11-05T15:40:00.000+08:00

this is just a personal post.. for a reminder..

**http://blogskins.com/info/138761**

note to self.. change to this layout..

PS.. also for you to anticipate my next skin change.,..
(skin change?? jude ar??? LOL!)

2007-11-05T14:45:00.000+08:00

i recently did a facial match thingy to see which celebrity i look like...

Try number one..
No Matches

Try number two..
Coolio
Jimmy Smits
Aaron Kwok
Michelle Rodriguez
Bob Dylan
Sophie Marceau
Brandy Norwood
Vivica A. Fox
Fernanda Tavares
Emily Rossum

Lol.. you can google them if you want to know how they look like.. its fun...

Ps... I measured my hair length today...
On the top of my head = 11cm...
In the front, Fringe..= 8cm..

whjy is my fringe shorter than the top???

2007-11-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

you know how good friends get to have inside jokes???
well, i decided to let you in on a little of me and gen's "secret" words..

Fencing = urm.. its hard to say.. lol.. okay it really means.. "happy" time..
Kumarnatapan = Become another Person
GavernickerBoom = Pay attention
BrrTaka = Come Down/Calm Down
BrrUpper = Come Up
Engayarrikarae = Where am i?
Engayarrikarai = Where are you?

These are some words we use in our conversations.. Lol.. i don't want to reveal too many,... lol

don't ask how we came up with the words.. lol.. we have our ways...

2007-11-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

I ve been thinking.. red black and white is not my color...
i like the more gentle type... so im going to change to black green and white.. its better.. this is just a wuick post.. so gots to go now.. byes...

PS... i added new exit links..

2007-11-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

MCR is coming to town!!!

I have to go!!! they're awesome!!! but im short of cash.. ive spent the last drop of my $500 holiday money!!! i need cash baby!!! please , anyone..? lend me? i can repay but the beginning of school term!!! PLEASE... i could fall on my knees!!! please.. i have to go.. besides.. i wouldnt want poor hazlami to go on his own right..

how did i spent 500 dollars in less than a week?? i have no idea either.. LOL..

2007-11-01T15:17:00.000+08:00

Girls i am into...
Tall, Brunette, Thin <-- like the girl in the sidebar pic... :)

School Holidays is such a bore!!!
No one invited to to anything.. am i being left out on the action??? no one invited to to movies, hang outs.. nothing.. except natalie and keith though.. she invited my to her sweet sixteen!! yay! and he invited me to a movie.. too bad i turned him down though..

Songs in my CellPhone..
50 files , 212 mb
artiste - title(where i heard the song from)
bolded = fave

Anastacia - At The Beginning(Orientation Camp)
Ashley Tisdale - Be Good To Me(Television)
Ashley Tisdale - Fabulous(Television)
Ashley Tisdale - He Said, She Said(Television)
Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone(Radio)
Ayumi Hamasaki - Jewel(Sister)
Britney Spears - Gimme More(Radio)
Brintey Spears - Someday(Movie Theatre)
Cheetah Girls - Cheetah Sisters(Television)
Cheryl Freeman - A Star Is Born(Genevieve)
Day After Tomorrow - Starry Heavens(Sister)
Diana Ross - If We Hold On Together(Mtv)
Elton John - Can You Feel The Love Tonight(Disney)
Emo Song(Youtube)
Evanescence - Call Me When You're Sober(Mtv)
Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry(Radio)
Good Charlottle - The River(Mtv)
Gwen Stefani - 4 in the Morning(Radio)
Hilary Duff - Burned(Album)
Hilary Duff - Fly(Mtv)
Hilary Duff - Haters(Internet)
Hilary Duff - Love is a Battlefield(Internet)
Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me(Raise Your Voice)
Hilary Duff - Weird(Album)
Jennifer Love Hewitt - Barenaked(Mtv)
Jewel - Intuition(Mtv)
Justin Timberlake - Lovestone/I Think She Knows(Radio)
Kelly Clarkson - Never Again(Mtv)
Lee Hyori - 10 Minutes(Friends in school in korea were playing it)
Lily Allen - LDN(Mtv)
Lindsay Lohan - Confessions Of A Broken Heart(mtv)
Michael Bolton - Go The Distance(tele)
My Chemical Romance - Teenagers(tele)
Nami Tamaki - Result(sister)
Namie Amuro - Baby Don't Cry(Hazlami)
Namie Amuro - Want Me, Want Me(Hazlami)
Nikki Blonsky - I Can Hear The Bells(movie)
Pat Benatar - Love is a Battlefield(old song)
Savage Garden - The Animal Song(long ago)
Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply(long ago)
Smashmouth - Allstar(long ago)
Spongebob Squarepants - F.U.N.(tele)
Stacie Orrico - I'm Not Missing You(Stacie Performing)
Tatu - Friend or Foe(radio blog club)
The Click Five - When I'm Gone(Keith)
The Corrs - Breathless(mtv)
The Veronicas - Cry (live)(Genevieve)
Weird Al - Ugly Girl(youtube)
Weird Al - Bin Laden Bomb Song(genevieve)
Zac Efron, Amanda Bynes, Nikki Blonksy - Without Love(movie)

2007-10-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

Im like so bored.. so this is a random post...

what I'm wearing,
head: nothing.. just my black hair droping dead on my forehead
top: black shirt, plain black no designs.. just a white words..
pants: navy blue jeans, kinda tight but not so..
shoes: dark brown sandals
wrists: a G-Shock wristwatch

what im thinking..
- why is my skin still peeling from the sun burn from camp?
- why am i still 5 ft. 4"?
- why have i only lost 3" of my waist?

what im viewing online...
- nat fern's blog
- YiZhi's blog
- Zonn's Blog
- Halloween parties
- Pete Wentz Online
- Hduffworld.com
- oh-hilary.com
- emo (Wikipedia)

what i've eaten since i woke up today....
- a packet of Kinder Bueno
- that's it

what i've drunken since i woke up.....
- a glass of water
- that's it

accomplishments today..
- i've lost 3 inches off my waist
- i don't feel like overeating anymore

secrets..
- im not emo per say.. but i tend to be emotional at times..
- movies i've cried in..
- Titantic
- A Walk to Remember
- loads.. but i forgot which ones.. okay.. i admit.. im like a water fountain when it comes to sad romance movies...

thats all for now. good by.. and good riddens..

2007-10-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

I SO FORGOT TO STATE!!!

THE POST BELOW IS THE LYRICS FOR THE VIDEO IN THE POST BELOW THAT!!

IT IS NOT MY POST...

lol.. sry for going all caplocks..

didnt want you guys to get the wrong idea...

2007-10-28T10:58:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary, Mood-Apethetic

My life is spiraling deathward. I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert. It sucks because they play some of my favorite songs like Stab My Heart Because I Love You and Rip Apart My Soul and of course Stab Me Rip Stab Stab and it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either like the guy from that band can do.

I'm an emo kid, nonconforming as can be
You'd be nonconforming too if you looked just like me
I got paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs

Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression girls just call me a fag
Cause the dudes look like chicks and chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

I'm dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sisters mascara now I'm grounded for a week

Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me its never any fun
They say they already have a pussy they don't need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

...My life is just a black abyss you know? Its so dark and its suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip. Tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans...Which look great on me by the way...

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection
I write in a LiveJournal and wear thick rim glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes

I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me 'Catcher in the Rye' and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said I like girls, I'd only be half right

I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw Xbox I play old school nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be eeeeeeemo

...My parents don't get me ya know? They think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy...well a couple of guys but I mean its the 2000's can't 2 or 4 dudes makeout with eachother without being gay? I mean chicks dig that kinda thing anyways.

I don't know diary sometimes I think you're the only one who gets me. You're my best friend. I feel like tacos.

Happy Birthday LeFa!

2007-10-26T13:52:00.000+08:00

I Totally Forgot!!!

Happy Birthdya Alfa!!!

Wish you luck, your 14 now.. almost the age of a true teen.. thats.. me! 16.. lol..
i can go clubbing now!!! yay me!

sorry for rubbing it in your face.. couldn't help it... its a bad habit..

anyhoo.. gots to go.. byes...

Emo Song

2007-10-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

Okay.. i tried to cheer myself up by watching some funny vidoes, that always works for me.. i went to bored.com ... and i looked up at the video paradies... it was hilarious.. but you guys have to watch this. lol.. its so funny.. singing about emo kids...

i think i lost a little bit more pounds.. i hope i can keep this up... wish me luck! soon, i can as skinny as....

That's Hilary DUff By The Way... she's not really THAT skinny, but the lighting makes her look it..

Presents

2007-10-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

I have never gotten any proper birthday present in 4 years!!! is that fair? No!!! Since when was anyone too old for birthday presents!!! i mean, i buy MY PARENTS birthday parents don't i?!!!!!aisfh; oighaw jgfi j i am pissed... nothing is going right!@!! im still 1.63m(5 ft.4), im still 70kgs(154 lb)... still a little overweigfht!!! i dont want my useless excess fat!!! i wanna be like skinny... no matter what i do... nth wotks.. so far i have only lost 7 kilograms(15 lb)... its not enough... what can i do... nothing seems to work!!! not growing any taller at all!!! in 3 months i only grew 2cm???? are you nuts!!! i might as well be a hobbit!!!
why does everything bad happend to me... why must the good dies young...well... no more mr. nice guy... im goinna put 120% into my weightloss regime... im going to be super skinny... whether you think i can or not... i can tell you now!!! by january... i'll be surprisingly thin!!!! compared to now atleast... lol... mark my words...!!!

what has gone wrong!

2007-10-23T13:21:00.000+08:00

Oh My God! i can believe i FAILED my overall grades!!! i thought things would work out fine after i got my english and literature grades.. because i got 74 for english and 67 for lit... i would never get that high for those subjects... but thanks to french my overall %% is 49.71... i wonder what will happend to me? will i have to be retained? will i have to move to another school? there is no way i am staying back a year... but another school??? if i do have to go to another school.. where would i go? fairfield? gan eng seng? queenstown? henderson? bukit merah? omg.. i want to stay at st. joseph's but a little part of me wants to leave... its just not my type of school.. but you know i hate making friends.. so another school would be like torture for me.. even though i should be used to it since i've been to tons of schools due to travelling to other countries.. but they were international schools... there seems to be a more friendly vibe at international schools.. then public schools... a lot of awful things are happenning to me, why me? i may have to move to another school, my classmates definately will not be in my class, my grades are horrible, argsrajkgh;o ithb';12k1... (sorry, i just had to do that!) argh!... what's wrong with me....

\here are my grades this term...

English Language A2 74
Literature in English B4 64
Geography D7 47
History F9 22
Mathematics A2 70
General Science( average between chem. phy. & bio ) C5 57
French F9 5

such a long post... but i wanna right so much... sorry if this post is boring you...!

Camp

2007-10-22T15:06:00.000+08:00

i was gone for soo long, im sorry for not saying.. it was a 4 day 3 night camp at Kluang, Malaysia!!! Anyhoo, there are just too many things on my mind right now... dont you just hate it when one of your best friends has got to leave to another school? i do! it has happened to me too many times... i was best friends with John for almost 6 years in thailand, till i had to move to Batam, where i was best friends with bethani and kyle, then i had to move to Korea, where i was like, well, i didn't make BEST friends but i was super close to maria... she left for georgia(the country)... i was lonely for 3 months... now in singapore... genevieve is my best friends... she's still my best friend not goin g anywhere... but my other best friend is going away... you see, i'm not really the social type, i mean it took me and gen 2 years to be friends, just normal friends... so just as i was getting along with my other best friend, he has to go to another school... its just not fair... i hate making frineds.. it just puts me off... argh!!!

Hilarious Indian Parady Video!!!

2007-10-03T17:05:00.000+08:00

Final Year Examinations!

2007-09-28T16:06:00.000+08:00

I wouldn't say i am great at maths, but i got 85 last term..
but today's math paper was mind-numbing.. it was damn difficult!
i was thinking too hard! esp. the last question, its about patterns.
it was paper 1 today and just yesterday, my form teacher said to bring our calculators, and we were like.. what?.. usu. you don't use calculators in paper 1.. and my friend said that, then it would probably be diff. since we could use a calculator..! he was sooo right! but the brightside is that since paper 1 was super diff. paper 2 should be a piece of cake!

esp. -> especially
usu. -> usually
diff. -> different

LINKED
Genevieve
Louiza

2007-09-24T17:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday At Genevieve's Church ( St. Theresa's Church )
There was a fiesta!

She's Hungry!

Poor Kid!

"Is that Britney Spears?!!!" lol..
Left: Jean, Right: Gen

Bread of the world Unite!

Jean, Gen and Me(I look retarded!) In front of gen's church...

A Crab with a cross on it's back??

We are the Door openers of the toilet...

2007-09-24T17:02:00.001+08:00

Let's Do The Twist Again!!!

Did I Step On Something??? or Am I Oprah Singing?

O.o.. Oooh.. Waffles...

Away with blocked noses! So you can pick them... lols..

Totem Pole! Me, Jean, Genevieve!

"Happy Birthday Farouq"

Who's the cute little sister?!!! lol...

O.o.. i met Ashley!!! As a cardboard!!! lol!

My Sis met Zac! lol...

Ooh.. Baby...

Pictures..

2007-09-21T16:18:00.001+08:00

I was bored.. so i decided to post pictures!!!

My Sis!

Hilary VS Angela (Score 3 - 2)

Jean on the left and Marie on the right.

My Other Sis.. holding the hilary vs angela thing

My Number 1!! Genevieve!!!

Day 8 of 30

2007-09-21T15:29:00.001+08:00

haiz.. Now day 8 out of 30 days of fasting.. i am going to die..
i hope i lose weight! LOL!
i really need to grow taller too, i now stand a mere 165cm my aim is 170cm.. but i really want to go passed that.
what i have been doing lately,
well, i have been reading! yes! reading, i know i can't believe i even said it!
but i'm "new" to reading, so i start simple...
i've been reading louis sachar's "wayside" series and "there's a boy in the girls bathroom", now i'm reading something i always wanted to read, but never really gotten to mood for it, "Diary of Anne Frank" i loved the play i saw about it when i was in 4th grade back in Thai-Chinese International School...

wells,... gtg.. byes..

I drafted a post.

2007-09-20T17:05:00.000+08:00

In case you guys didn't notice, i drafted a post, just in case the person i was talking about saw it. if you were keeping up you'd know.. anyways, there's nothing much to add today.
Its Terrence's(me and Genevieve call him Aaron) Birthday today!!! Happy birthday!
My Final year examinations are next week on wednesday! i'm gonna die! wish me luck guys!(in the exams not dying)
Today in school was boring, i have a french oral afterwards, going to fail that to. urgh! i hate languages! except spanish and korean.. lol..
next year i hope i can stay in the top 5th class... i wanna learn continue to learn chemistry and biology, i totally hate physics! but too bad physics is compulsory! so if i want to learn bio, i must learn all three! not fair! oh well, i think i can set out my future.. i used to wish i could be a doctor.. now i am not sure...
oh well.. GTGs....
ttyl...

LINKED
Genevieve
HilaryHigh

Exam results

2007-09-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

I hope i can keep up my results!!!

English : B3 66
Literature : C6 52
Geography : C6 54
History : F9 35
Maths : A1 85
Chemistry : A1 75

you may think my results look bad, but its my best so far!!! lol!! why must my school be so tough!

byes...

LINKED
Genevieve
HilaryHigh

Fasting Month came too soon

2007-09-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

Day 5 has come out of 30. Fasting is not as easy as it may seem. But you get used to it and just watch the days pass. Oh well, let me introduce myself.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5
My name is Farouq and I say Hi!
6, 7, 8, 9, 10
But some of my friends call me Aaron!

lol! just wanted to start of my blog with a weird bam!

anyways my bestest of the bestest friends are in my list..

Numero Uno!
Name: Genevieve
Age: 14
Country: Singapore (born in the Philippines)

Number Two!
Name: Cornelius
Age: 14
Country: Singapore

Number Three
Name: Tahmid
Age: 14
Country: Singapore (Bangladeshi)

Number Four
Name: Hazlami
Age: 14
Country: Singapore

These are my Top 4 Friends in the world!!! Sad to say I lost contact with many friends from many other countries!!! Like, Bethani, Kyle, Imigan, Gene, John, Pink.. many more... Thailand, Indonesia, USA, South Korea, Australia!!!

Oh how much i miss them.!!!

Well.. GTG.. I hope I can update tomorrow!!!

TTYL!!!

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Genevieve